The past 7 months have been such a blur. I feel like I’m watching my life go by through someone else’s eyes. I’m so tired of being tired.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had a lot of amazing experiences this year and I appreciate them all so much.
On the inside things aren’t that amazing and I’m just waiting for things to look up. I remember thinking “it’s summer, things will get better” and now here I am thinking “it’s winter, things will get better”.
The real question is: when will it get better? I know the years have a lot to bring but I’ve been feeling so low that I start to forget.
Every time I look in the mirror I want to smash my reflection. Sometimes I’ll go to bed at 10pm and not wake up until 6pm the next day. It’s just a constant struggle to move, to do anything other than the things I have to do.
I’m thankful that I’ve been able to keep my business thriving and “autopilot” through what needs to be done to keep my life from becoming nothing at all.
I know what I have to do to feel better other than waiting and hoping: make changes. And I have been. I’ll continue to make changes, wait, and hope, until I feel like myself again.
I’m not posting this for sympathy. I just don’t want my struggles to be silent forever. If you’re going through the same thing, I’m so sorry and I hope any advice I have could help you.
Internal struggles aren’t always a sign of weakness so you don’t need to think any less of me because of this post. I’m still fighting.
Have a good day everyone.
It’s really hard to live with parent(s) that only make your life harder. Time to move out!
Whitening my teeth 😁